But , under the present circumstances , i am justified in doubting the wisdom of an old man who , because he hated the father , vents his anger on the son . it would be ridiculous in me to regulate my conduct by such caprices 但现在，由于他恨那个父亲，竟迁怒到了儿子身上，在这种状况下，我有充分的理由怀疑老人的智力，如果我按照他的怪念头去行事，那就未免太可笑了。
The question of whether master is aware of my presence or not did not arise anymore , because i was so happy and grateful to see and hear her . my strange thoughts before , about how i should be and what i should do to be " right , " disappeared 对于师父是否看到我，再也不曾困扰我，因为能看到师父听到师父的声音让我很快乐并充满感激，以往那些我该如何该怎么做才对的怪念头似乎都消失不见了。
But if this world is not merely a bad joke , life a vulgar flare amid the cool radiance of the stars , and existence an empty laugh braying across the mysteries , if these intimations of something behind and beyond are not evil humor born of indigestion , or whimsies sent by devil to mock and madden us , if , in a word , beauty means something , yet we must not seek to interpret the meaning 但是，如果这个世界不只是一场恶作剧，如果生命不只是惨淡的星光里的平凡的一闪，如果存在不只是神秘的宗教仪式传出的一阵空虚的笑声，如果对某种玄妙的事物的暗示不是由于消化不良而引起的不良情绪，或者不是一种魔鬼送来嘲笑我们并使我们发狂的怪念头，一句话，如果美有某种意义的话，我们无需设法去阐明它的意义。
